Getting things in the right way!

I stood wondering when a long awaited response turned working.  Believe it i got shocked my finding my face freezed.  this worried me very badly, and after a while i went back and looked into the mirror, where has the happiness vanished! is what my question to me was!  i was looking deep into my eyes, as people often say i have big black eyes which show eagerness and energies each time i achieve something.  I was continuously asking my self what was that which kept me worrying still... ha ha ha... there was a time in my life when i knew only happiness.  Worst situations, ha ha... Happy things around, still more ha ha... this was me, the true me...

Life has turned so miserable that a six letter word has brought in great boosts in me, and i truly wanted to take a second side of the world and live for my self.  although i could not sustain initially but later things got still worsened.  then i realised, i should not take a second side, but win from the same side, where world is!  Life wasnt as simple as a few words i jotted here, but, yes, it was a tough time to win confidance of people that im in their side, and all that im trying to do, is to take a lead and bring overall energies to all those looking at me... saying what is she all upto!

finally, when a happiness touched me a little while back in the form of placement, still my face read a freezed expression... a time when majority of my mates thought im lost totally...!! still, i was giving myself time to cope the lost charm.  what i could realise after these incidents is, if one doesnt feel happy for small and smaller happenings, when a bigger happiness touches, he would forget what happiness and reaction for happiness would be!!  

Finally i should say, mere smile doesnt reflect happiness, and those who believe in soft smiles, please do laugh aloud sometimes a day, just to tell urself that u r alive!