Done for this Year??

hmm... done for this year or still to go is a big question ahead! but answer being simple, done its just a few moments to go to enter a new year which new desires, new dreams and all new...

sometimes i feel if we can really have all new things in a new form; but problem would be to my accounts professor i guess... who repeatedly believes in carry forward concept!  

btw here i remember a sweet memory from my recent past; it was a few years back, may be in 2005 that i realised this; i had a habbit of jotting my things and feeling at the day end, and used to jot all together at year end; (i had ample of time for myself); at the end i finally make a wish list as well as a resolution list;  although my wish list kept changing year after year, with increasing wishes and complexities in it, but my resolutions remained the same!  ha ha... 

i never ever strained to stand on once decided resolutions, but each time when year was to end, i certainly used to make a list, as if i were to work on them... believe it, even priorities werent even changed with passing years..!! i dont jot them now, but bet me, if i do, they would be the same!!

well, nothing much i want from this new year, but again my wish list this time has only 2 wishes which are like pretty big, and complex... let me see if i can make a fresh list next year without a carry forward!! Wishing you all a very happy new year and anticipating ur wish lists to be big enough to keep u busy the whole year!!  

Getting things in the right way!

I stood wondering when a long awaited response turned working.  Believe it i got shocked my finding my face freezed.  this worried me very badly, and after a while i went back and looked into the mirror, where has the happiness vanished! is what my question to me was!  i was looking deep into my eyes, as people often say i have big black eyes which show eagerness and energies each time i achieve something.  I was continuously asking my self what was that which kept me worrying still... ha ha ha... there was a time in my life when i knew only happiness.  Worst situations, ha ha... Happy things around, still more ha ha... this was me, the true me...

Life has turned so miserable that a six letter word has brought in great boosts in me, and i truly wanted to take a second side of the world and live for my self.  although i could not sustain initially but later things got still worsened.  then i realised, i should not take a second side, but win from the same side, where world is!  Life wasnt as simple as a few words i jotted here, but, yes, it was a tough time to win confidance of people that im in their side, and all that im trying to do, is to take a lead and bring overall energies to all those looking at me... saying what is she all upto!

finally, when a happiness touched me a little while back in the form of placement, still my face read a freezed expression... a time when majority of my mates thought im lost totally...!! still, i was giving myself time to cope the lost charm.  what i could realise after these incidents is, if one doesnt feel happy for small and smaller happenings, when a bigger happiness touches, he would forget what happiness and reaction for happiness would be!!  

Finally i should say, mere smile doesnt reflect happiness, and those who believe in soft smiles, please do laugh aloud sometimes a day, just to tell urself that u r alive!

Bureaucracy Ruling The World...

After a long time, infact years after, I have landed in a feeling of being weak to face the world. Bureaucracy rules the world, is what proved again in front my eyes today, and i could not stop an emotion forcing out of my two big eyes; somehow i feel, Indian Constitution should reframe the legal meaning of a RULE. Although we Indians are clear about implications on breaking rules, i somehow somewhere feel we lack creativity in creating rules. Now dont get puzzled staring at what am i trying to say... its all about an individual fighting for his basic right which could not come along with a rule made by his organisation. A partial deviation costed him very high and believe me, standing outside the issue, silently and nodding against what i felt from heart is the feeling that has hurt me today! A small question again arised in my mind, do we really need rules, if yes, why cant genuinity be given a fair exception in that...
If life is all about feeling bad for things going wrong, and inability to act against them, what would be the moral of this story.............??????

Who's watching my work...

believe it or not, i have a watch on me, when i work on my laptop, and particularly during times of tough work, like a project or a study work on a large scale... the one watching is not a person sitting next to me or my team mate, but, it is an interesting cattie... i will show you how it feels when i find this animating as per my moods!!

there were times when we were 5 in a team, helplessly holding a design which failed after a straineous effort of 4 weeks, and at the end of 4th week, when we had nothing in hand except a dead line to submit the thesis, i was miserably rolling mouse and tickling this cattie... then it did not take more than 30 seconds for all of us sitting infront of the system to cheer up..!!

the time i animated it, it displayed a print animation; ha ha... it was showing us the way out!!

although this happened a few years back, still, this was reeling in my eyes, yesterday when i was sitting on a task as crucial as that, and suddenly when i realised something is going wierd, it was the cattie... doing.... hmm... see and tell me my stance after seeing this animation!! ha ha ha is what i had to do!

Kick Starting....

Today when a friend of mine was puzzled at the way I am and was very skeptical if i ever like anyone or not, i thought i would tell him all my list of likes and dislikes!! still, thought for a second, and realised its the problem with my visible side, but not with him!!
then thought i would better know what my visible side is, as simple idea, only if i know what my visible side is, then only i can show it to others!! ha ha ha...
But kick starting a new idea is as tough as a new venture! still, thought i can give it a try!!